September 2011
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Stranger
you used to be papi to him, used to be a fucking role model until your drunkenness returned home with you on late nights i lost some respect for you, but mami always believed. when mami passed, you were still papi. you brought along a whore that smoked as much as she breathed and invaded privacy, she lost all my respect that day. you started yelling, calling him retarded trash that was useless, he...
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Sunflower
so i want to watch you smile, my one and only radiant star; there’s something about you that defeats the hearts and aches of the past; makes me forget about the popping pills of yesteryear. this day is as important to me as it is to you. today marks the day that the sun to my flower was born, heart thudding as keys tap rapidly i have so much to thank you for. this is your day to shine your...
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Lusting Is A Sin
one: foreplay. he’d begin by not speaking his mind, sweet nothings shared only by glance and actions, as well as breaths, he was a thief, intent on stealing away innocence, hands tracing the curves and valleys of an angel’s body; “lusting is a sin” has lost its meaning by now. two: intercourse. it begins slowly, and gasping has become a rhythm he moves to, there are short...
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Ring
take my hand & i’ll slip a ring onto yours when you’re not looking, i want to hear the melodic surprise in your flawless voice; the sound of you crying happily will quench my thirst, the need to hold you is overwhelming, i want you to know just how much i need you in my life and i’ll show you, with this ring, i’ll show you prove to you that you are my medicine, my drug,...
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Outcomes
he told her. told her how he needed to escape, he needed to run until the fire in his lungs became an incinerator, how he skipped pills rather than popping them. he spent the night in bed listening to conversations that never occurred listening to suggestions never made, watching the walls shiver in anticipation at what would happen - how would he explain his foolish actions? he told her. he...
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Not Proud
mama, what a daughter you’ve raised she grew up to be a terrible young man tantrums to the right and errors to the left he is the definition of what it means to be a fuck up, mama are you listening? do you hear him cry when others see him smile? are you proud of him? mama, he’s not proud of himself. the boy’s looking mighty pale and he’s had fevers as much as he’s...
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Doctor!
so there’s this little problem, right? i think it’s been ever since we met. elevated blood pressure and shortness of breath have astounded me, leaving me in tears of sudden euphoria i don’t know what these symptoms mean, i grow dazed when i’m with you, palms sweating with anxiety. it’s been like this ever since we met, and i know this disease i know what it is, but i...
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"i love you. much more than i should."
i knew only anxiety that day, heart racing as i admitted to you everything that raced across my mind the hints, all of those clues i denied them told myself they meant nothing and i was being too hopeful before those words, i was a wreck wondering if i even stood a chance with such an ethereal being i could not help but try to imagine us together, a curtain of rose falling over my features i knew...
August 2011
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Galaxy
you are a sea of stars in which i lost my path; eyes shut like they got sand in ‘em, wandering with arms out fingers groping at air, trying to cop a feel of life; trying to touch whatever the hell came into reach.
i’d like to think i could write worth shit ‘cause this ain’t got nothin on what you make me feel; the things you’ve made me experience are colors...
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Promise
i want you to tie this string around your pinky, this end will be on mine this is a promise i’m making. a promise, you’ll be stuck with me forever if not by love, by bond, if not by bond, by soul i am telling you now that you’ve got me right here for as long as i live i will not tolerate letting you go i’ve let far too many people go i’ve let far too many promises...
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Castiel
so i want to taint you, i want to take you in my arms, ravish you claim you as mine and mine alone, i want to see that smile as well as that flush the sweat on your brow i want to be the only one to witness you moaning, call out my name for me, i want to hear you sing i want to hear your ethereal cry for me, and nobody else. ———— Based on a roleplay with my sunflower <3...
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Seven Years
greetings seventh year, i want you to know i welcome you with open arms. it’s been this song since she left, since her body grew too weak to keep her soul, which i hope rests rather than worries over the mess i’ve become, i want her to know she’s been my one true hero disregarding that she probably didn’t even remember who i was by the time she died. mother, it’s been...
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Wants
i want to know what it’s like to grasp a balloon and float away but that’s something i’ll never know i want to breathe underwater, lungs filling with freshness i want to taste the oceanic nature but that’s something i’ll never know
i want to press my finger against the burning hot intensity of a red giant, give it a kiss for shining so brightly but that’s...
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The Monster In The Web
there once was a child unsure of what he wanted to be; he lived a life, covered himself in scars he knew what hardships were. and with each skip he left more and more behind him; but one day, he met a monster. “i see you,” he said, and the monster bared its fangs, several eyes locking onto his own. “and i see you,” the monster replied, tipping the top hat it wore....
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Malfoy
you’re the victim, i see to your father a cruel man, full of neglect and selfish needs to fulfill; malfoy it feels.. odd, to say your name we never saw eye to eye; nor did we face the same direction. we walked different paths, up until the end glances were only exchanged on the battlefield. but i see it now; you were only following his command his order his wish his will his, his, his - all...
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Keep Tugging
tugging on the strings of fate, we are, because something tells me that this occurrence was meant to be - but we decide what we want to do about it. we tug a little more; what’ll come down? perhaps a chance at a future together? i would like - love - that breathless feeling i’ll experience while waking up to your eyes. another tug, and what comes crashing down is a chance to be in...
July 2011
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Security Blanket
breath becomes breathlessness, a heart becomes an engine and i can’t seem to shake this emotion that comes with it all. there’s a feeling of certainty in us, one that i want to hold on to a security blanket of sorts one that i cherish so much
already you mean so much to me already and i cannot believe how this came to be mere days of friendship leading to growing affection leading to...
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Good Morning
i would give my flesh to wake up to you, my eyes would drift open as slowly as a leaf ventures from its home on an autumn evening, yes, it would be a fantastic thing, you and i; we would lay in bed and watch each other smile, and for a moment, i’d know what it feels like to be lost in someone’s eyes, “good morning,” i’d say, cheeks flushed with the anticipation of a...
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Hands
since the beginning you’ve been there; the heartache that tore me down was washed away by your hands, your hands, - i never realized how soft your hands were - those hands by your sides, clenched when i was with her i know why now. i don’t know why you never told me because i feel the same way. ———— A gift for a friend; a poem to Logan from...
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These Bones
there’s a part of me that wished that things could last forever, always clinging onto the memories of the forgotten, tainting new ones with the longing of the past it’s a natural thing for me to wish everything was something i wasn’t used to, i’ve grown tired of the same mess. these bones cannot reach over to gather the same debris, back aching with the rubble of a day on...
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It's Been A While.
i recall that night, mother, holding your hand while i slept at your side i remember the feeling of security it gave me, how it made me fearless, this is how it’s like, i thought,
to be invincible. it was a night of dreams, mother, i cannot fathom. mother, do you watch me? there’s always that small thread of fate my spirituality believing that you are standing behind me, reading over...
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Even If They Break
i will open my hands to you let my universe unfold for you
i want to wrap my self in your arms, so tight the warmth will bury itself in my blood this is not morbidity but it is the way i love with need to cover these scars of past hearts and aches, self-inflicted sentences uttered onto my skin this is how it feels to breathe. to live in front of a monitor, this distance is no match for my...
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Days Go By
waiting,
the days sluggishly pass me by and i realize
it’s been another day
without you
by my side.
i will wait, i say,
this distance
between us,
nothing but a deteriorated wall
on my path to you
days go by and the love still blossoms
until our fingers may entwine in
flower-carpeted fields
on
my favorite swing sets
during
a day of nothing but blaze
or
a frost-bitten...
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The Child I Once Was
You’ve taught me how to trust the child I once was alone on a playground has grown for you to be a man, arms powerful enough to protect and to love this is the strength you’ve given me throughout the years, this is the blood sweat and tears of a teen dragged through the mud the scars of an adult healing slowly but surely and I owe it all to you.
———— For...
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Reach Me.
There’s a sound that reminds me of you. The tap dancing of droplets on gray days as well as the running of aspiring young temporary rivers reach me and I stand there, open toed sandals a mess of leaves and residue of NYC streets, disgusting, I think, but beautiful.
Up, I see, and water caresses warm flesh, the tears of the sky drip down and reach me this this is what it feels like to be in...