i knew only anxiety that day,
heart racing as i admitted to you
everything that raced across my mind
the hints, all of those clues i denied them
told myself they meant nothing and i was
being too hopeful
before those words, i was a wreck
wondering if i even stood a chance
with such an ethereal being
i could not help but try to imagine us together,
a curtain of rose falling over my features
i knew only affection that day,
when i asked you to be mine
i greeted happiness
before that promise, i was a mere child
now i’ve grown to see what i mess i was,
regret filling me to the brim
i knew only shame that day,
shame that you took away with a smile
and soon, you eliminated with
a confession
i knew only joy that day
how my heart raced for tipsy words
i remember it all clearly,
laughing at drunken typing
i used to hate the sun-kissed season
but you aided me through the storm
and now i realized that with you
i know only love

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Happy Two Months. <3